Bus trip

On the bus you can meet the most interesting people, you are given a small insight into an absolute strangers life just by hearing their conversation or observing the way that the interact with those around them. On the bus today there was a lovely elderly fellow who was singing to himself when we stood at the bus stop, he asked the bus driver if he went to rockdale plaza and the bus driver said he didn't go in but past on the highway, the bus driver very kindly said he would stop for the man and when he got on he said to me I presume "I'm a prriest I tell about God, I love Jesus the Christ." I don't know what type of accent it was but he spoke clear enough but with a very pronounced accent, another man got on when we stopped again and he said "everything is alright, everything is alright" the man mumbled something in reply bi when the next people got on he said "all is well, all is good the conversation went no further. At the next stop we made a couple got on and the man who had gotten on started to talk about the weather with the priest (< he was dressed in a blue striped shirt like my grandfather wears and shorts, sandals and socks and was carrying behind him one of those trolley cart things) they spoke briefly of the weather as it was a hot day and there was a storm to be expected, and then the priest said again "I am a prriest, I tell about God." Then it was his stop and he jumped out and stood on the corner waiting for the lights, smiling away at the buses occupants and then waving until he had to walk. There was something inspiring in the way he was so absolutely open about his faith and beliefs, he felt that everyone must know he was a priest and that meant he believed in God, I get frightened from talking with those I love about God but here he was on a busy trip with strangers thinking it so important that they at least knew what he was and why. I believe God makes everything happen for a reason and if all that man did that for was to inspire me to share more than I will simply have to get that sorted.

With love always

Ok guys so I have to admit one little secret that I have kept for far too long...

I listen to lame music! Ok I know that wasn't really a surprise but I just have to tell you about my new found interest..... this IS what it looks like.... I mean sometimes I don't even understand what he is saying but I still have listened to it more times than I should have done. Well I thought it was bad that I found this song and listened to it until I found something worse but I love it more and so without further ado here we have Jaden and Willow Smith and even though I think they are cute for trying I don't really love the song in the way that I normally will love music but I have listened to this twice in one night... Oh the shame!
Now, now before you call me a hater... I do not think that it is bad that Jaden or Willow have musical careers I just don't really appreciate the fact that these kids have more money and junk than more than half the world. Ok it isn't their fault I don't know maybe I am a hater but I like their music so how can I be a hater? 

Also I love the chorus of the song so much and Willow's dancing that I think you should hear it again 
Just watch This! You know you want to ;)

New Beginnings

So its a brand new year and I have an aim. To Blog more! Yay!
I have a  new car and am about to get two jobs working with beautiful families. I also am doing a Gap year studying Theology for a year and then midyear doing a short mission trip, I have moved houses and will be right next to my two best friends! Let's just say I think this year will be amazing!!!
I could be wrong and I do expect there to be hardships and pain but I know that no matter what I will be able to turn to God for strength, my family and friends for support and love, and the bible for guidance.

I will try and post every week but don't expect anything too often

With love always
Taiya  <3>

Memories and Dreams

I want sleep but it will not come

Oh, sweet bliss that would take me away

Far away from my bed and home.

For in this place I would rather not stay

But travel on dreams of the sun.

In dreams there is joy and escape 

Whilst I am awake there is none of this.

I think of memories of days past

Think of the last time I felt that kiss

Oh, to be back there again.

Time was no worry when I was with you and

Sweet were the days of endless pleasure,

Days spent with you on the sand.

Afternoons filled with glorious leisure,

A beach that only we shared. 

How can you miss a child you've never met?

I lost a sibling today, I didn't get to meet him or her, but I still loved them as I love the rest of my family. I miss the baby all ready and wish it didn't have to be this way but its not always the way we see it. I love that baby and I know I will one day meet them in heaven but the pain still touches my heart and I miss my baby without having to know them. Don't mean to be a downer but I know that I'm not alone in this that there are so many out there dealing with the grief of losing someone and I just need them to know that this is not the end, this wont be all and you can do it :)

With love always

How I spend an evening

Ok just have to tell the Internet about my new love! The Vamps! Three young guys who do covers of songs and do it with style, they are probably the only band I can say I really love for their covers. I can't wait until the start doing some originals but I annoy complaining at all with the way they are going. They are inspiring musically and I hope one day I will be able to see them in person.
With love always

Abusing Love

So I was thinking about love and there is so much abuse of the word and everything related to it... You see so many people abuse others in the name of love or abuse love out of ignorance of the meaning of the word. 

In the dictionaries I have looked at it is described as a warm affection for another person. Now let's make sure we get this right so affection means...? This is what google told me:

1. A gentle feeling of fondness or liking.
2. Physical expressions of these feelings.

So if having affection/love for someone means we are fond of them and we express this with physical expression all we have to do is like someone and show them that? Yeah no I don't think it's that simple, I mean it's love right? Well there are a few things that the bible tells us about love in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

1. Love is patient 

2. Love is kind 

3. Love does not envy 

4. Love does not boast 

5. Love is not proud 

6. Love is not rude

7.  Love is not self seeking

8. Love is not easily angered

9. Love keeps no record of wrong

10.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

11. Love always protects.

12. Love always trusts.

13. Love always hopes.

14. Love always perseveres.

15. Love never fails.

Is this what comes to your mind when you think about love. I don't think so.... I know I don't, I think about the feelings I get when I'm with a person. Now this is where most people tend to abuse love, see if you think about love as the mushy feelings you get then you will treat love as a feeling when it isn't it is an action as well. Then when you feel lonely or sad or neglected you will feel unloved but that isn't the problem is it? There are reasons we are sad/lonely/neglected and sometimes they have to do with love but sometimes they are to do with something else and we blame others for feeling unloved when we really know deep down that it is something different that has got us thinking this way but it probably hurts too much to think about and it's so much easier to just blame others. 

Well I have an example for this there's a girl and she comes from a broken home and she has friends she loves to bits but when she sees them she almost ends up hanging off them due to a lack of affection from her mother and though her friends do love her back they find themselves feeling pressured to give her their love which they won't do and they end up pulling away instead of being open about how they feel and the cycle spins she tries to force them to show their love instead of allowing them to give it freely. 

If you realise that love is not a feeling but an action then you can say "hey I love you and when you need me I will always be there and it doesn't matter what you say to me I will never give up on you" it is not when you say " if you love me you will always make time for me" or "I love you so I need you to give me a hug and tell me it'll be okay" this is not love, true love is patient and it is not self seeking. 
Then there is real abuse when a person will hurt another person and claim that they love them, this is not love. "Love is kind" and "not easily angered" and so if a person is claiming to love you but will not treat you with real love then you should really think about your definition of love.