I am having one of those days. I feel and have thrown a temper tantrum and I don't even care. I am exhausted beyond belief but I am considering an all nighter in order to finish the tasks I have been neglecting. I am sad and filled with something I cannot identify since it is a feeling I have not decided what it means, I cannot even think about expressing them. I want to curl up in a ball and never unfurl but I need people to keep me going which means getting up. I have many responsibilities that I have neglected for longer than is healthy and without attending to them or growing in my understanding of importance in life I fear I will somehow fail the role of grown up. I am so very tired of continuing on but as I was reflecting on this I knew that stopping was impossible and even taking a pause meant that everything would unravel. My life is not amazing but it does work no matter what my perspective is.